My last blog post was a bit of me sharing my process in a personal struggle. That describes pretty much all of my posts to be honest.
I am never sure if anyone reads my wandering words…but I do know that by writing them down, I am practicing my own form of meditation and obedience. And ultimately, I hope to encourage someone else who may be facing a similar struggle.
A lot of us are afraid to share personal struggles publically. And admittedly, it needs to be done with great wisdom and discretion. It isn’t something we can just word vomit without prayer and discernment from the Holy Spirit.
AND (I cannot stress this part enough) it needs to be generic and done in a way that we are never tearing anyone down. At least that is my own personal standard in sharing a struggle.
I don’t often get feedback, or a lot of likes/shares. I can see how many hits the website has had, but that isn’t really conclusive info, and I can drive myself crazy checking to see if anyone has looked…so I try to avoid it.
However, every once in a while someone will tell me how my words and sharing my struggle or my trial has encouraged them in their own.
And whether it is biblical maturity or not, (my heart still needs some work in regards to people pleasing) it does give me a huge lift to hear that from someone-anyone.
So when I shared my blog yesterday, I steeled myself once again for the lack of engagement and feedback. Because that CANNOT be why I do it. (Maybe I will write another post on that someday) Within a couple of hours, a friend commented on the post saying that the words I had shared from scripture were a direct and immediate response to a prayer she had prayed that morning.
As I read those words, I broke.
I ugly cried right at my desk at work.
Snot and mascara running…
Because when we share our struggle and it encourages and lifts someone else’s eyes to Jesus, it deepens our revelation that GOD Is GOOD and he uses all things for the GOOD of those who are called according to his purposes. (Romans 8:28)
It becomes solid evidence that God is working in our pain. Something we can point our hearts to and say "Look! God is in it!".
It is an encouragement to us that there is always a purpose that goes BEYOND just ourselves.
Why are you struggling? Why are you hurting?
Because there is sin in this world. Period.
What can God do with my trials and pain?
That is the question I am learning to ask.
God can use my pain to call me to himself. To pull me closer. Deeper.
When I become so desperate that I push my way towards him with all my energy and focus.
In Mark 5 there is a story of two people who pressed into Jesus, through a huge crowd, because of deep pain.
A man whose 12 year old daughter was sick and dying.
A woman who was slowly bleeding to death and no one could help.
Jesus responded to both of these women with miraculous and public healing.
And the entire crowd that day saw something that I am certain infused them with faith!
God did something amazing with their pain.
But it was for infinitely more than just their own healing.
It was intended to go way BEYOND that.
It was for the generations. For the church. For us to read in the gospels 2000+ years later.
Because Jesus is always interested in the community.
Not just the one.
So know today that whatever you face, God can use it for something way beyond what you can ask or even imagine.
14 So I kneel humbly in awe before the Father of our Lord Jesus, the Messiah, 15 the perfect Father of every father and child in heaven and on the earth. 16 And I pray that he would unveil within you the unlimited riches of his glory and favor until supernatural strength floods your innermost being with his divine might and explosive power.
17 Then, by constantly using your faith, the life of Christ will be released deep inside you, and the resting place of his love will become the very source and root of your life.
18–19 Then you will be empowered to discover what every holy one experiences—the great magnitude of the astonishing love of Christ in all its dimensions. How deeply intimate and far-reaching is his love! How enduring and inclusive it is! Endless love beyond measurement that transcends our understanding—this extravagant love pours into you until you are filled to overflowing with the fullness of God!
20 Never doubt God’s mighty power to work in you and accomplish all this. He will achieve infinitely more than your greatest request, your most unbelievable dream, and exceed your wildest imagination! He will outdo them all, for his miraculous power constantly energizes you.
21 Now we offer up to God all the glorious praise that rises from every church in every generation through Jesus Christ—and all that will yet be manifest through time and eternity. Amen!